It was my second USG. First time, realisation and confirmation of you inside me dawned upon me. And when i saw you, i skipped my heartbeats for the very moment. There you were wriggling. And that moment was the GOLDEN MOMENT! I was speechless. Wanted to call your father and show him our baby but the USG rules were quiet strict in that hospital. However, it really was a wonderful experience. All these days, i could only feel your heartbeats within me.... but from that very moment, i started feeling YOU inside me...!
Saturday, March 25, 2017
ME BEFORE YOU...!
Posting my writings under the title "ME BEFORE YOU" i fulfilled in my pregnancy. A way to talk out to my child. A way to communicate with him before he came into this world. May be when he will be able to read these words, my child will understand how special he has been to me.... long before he was born!
I always felt that i will be the same person all my life. Being an HR person and having an insight in human psychology, i knew that one cannot be the same person throughout his/her life. We do change, alter our egos in due course of life. And the very first experience proving the fact is my post-marriage life.
There are not only changes in me, my body, but it has been a shift which i have observed from a dependent, cranky, flamboyant personality to an independent, calm, composed, solution seeker personality. And now when i know that you will be a new entrant in my life, its again a paradigm shift.
Initially it was a shift in my whole sensibility. A shift from finding answers to ask questions. Yes... Questions!
Baby, you are coming in my life with a pack of questions hitting hard on me...
I always felt that i will be the same person all my life. Being an HR person and having an insight in human psychology, i knew that one cannot be the same person throughout his/her life. We do change, alter our egos in due course of life. And the very first experience proving the fact is my post-marriage life.
There are not only changes in me, my body, but it has been a shift which i have observed from a dependent, cranky, flamboyant personality to an independent, calm, composed, solution seeker personality. And now when i know that you will be a new entrant in my life, its again a paradigm shift.
Initially it was a shift in my whole sensibility. A shift from finding answers to ask questions. Yes... Questions!
Baby, you are coming in my life with a pack of questions hitting hard on me...
Sunday, December 19, 2010
You need to be scared to be brave....!
Yes!
That's the food for thought today....!
Do we always have to be that bravo kinda throughout our life...
And, even if we aren't, do we have to mask that bravery on our faces and pretend to be a superwoman/superman???
Well...Why so....?
Can't we sometimes be like a small kid scared of the darkness...scared of the big bully man down the scary dark lane, scared of not just getting our homework right...?
That doesn't mean that only being a kid gives us the liberty of being scared but that's what goes by the societal norms! Being an adult you just can't be scared, you just can't beak down in tears in front of everybody, you just can't shudder at a mere thought of something....n most important you just can't afford to be not BRAVE!
Is being brave or being strong only about all this?
I really disagree with this...
Why we have to put on a brave face all the time?
Its LIFE....n most importantly its your LIFE...
You can win sometimes, you can loose sometimes!
You can cry because it feels lonely and hurt...!
You can be scared of the darkness when there's an blackout...all of a sudden!
You can mess up in your most important presentations in front of your clients!
You can panic at the very thought of visiting your dentist...!
You can feel like running back to your home and sitting with your face hidden in between your knees in your favorite corner..!
That's just a part of living a life! Sometimes you have to be scared to be brave enough...!
So, don't be shy to vent out those hidden emotions occasionally...
Laugh loudly, Cry wholeheartedly, hug the people you love, appreciate even the small gestures from the bottom of your heart and most importantly love without any hesitations!
That will make us BRAVER!
Agreed???
That's the food for thought today....!
Do we always have to be that bravo kinda throughout our life...
And, even if we aren't, do we have to mask that bravery on our faces and pretend to be a superwoman/superman???
Well...Why so....?
Can't we sometimes be like a small kid scared of the darkness...scared of the big bully man down the scary dark lane, scared of not just getting our homework right...?
That doesn't mean that only being a kid gives us the liberty of being scared but that's what goes by the societal norms! Being an adult you just can't be scared, you just can't beak down in tears in front of everybody, you just can't shudder at a mere thought of something....n most important you just can't afford to be not BRAVE!
Is being brave or being strong only about all this?
I really disagree with this...
Why we have to put on a brave face all the time?
Its LIFE....n most importantly its your LIFE...
You can win sometimes, you can loose sometimes!
You can cry because it feels lonely and hurt...!
You can be scared of the darkness when there's an blackout...all of a sudden!
You can mess up in your most important presentations in front of your clients!
You can panic at the very thought of visiting your dentist...!
You can feel like running back to your home and sitting with your face hidden in between your knees in your favorite corner..!
That's just a part of living a life! Sometimes you have to be scared to be brave enough...!
So, don't be shy to vent out those hidden emotions occasionally...
Laugh loudly, Cry wholeheartedly, hug the people you love, appreciate even the small gestures from the bottom of your heart and most importantly love without any hesitations!
That will make us BRAVER!
Agreed???
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Cloud 9
These days a new hobby to flaunt! M observing the clouds... Ya the clouds! Clouds with so many appearances! Some White, some bluish...n then those dark black clouds....which bring in the thundershowers(n seem perfectly like the big bad boys....bullying even the sun and wind!) n how can one forget the clouds with red and orange tints....which paint the whole sky with their miraculous color scheme. And then if you hav a strong imagination, then you can always see some forms amidst the clouds! Rabbits, elephants, lions....its a sanctuary up there if you observe on a sunny day! Once i even happened to watch a whole castle hidden up there .... And then also have started an activity of capturing these clouds at their best. The place where i work coz of its excellent location in the lap of mountains and trees gives me a chance to nurture this hobby further! It feels wonderful to be on top of a mountain and then get lost i the misty moisture of the clouds floating there... Its really an exhilarating experience. And then clouds do speak to us! They inspire us! They convey that watever color ur life brings to you....keep floating...keep adapting to the situation and blend in the color of the nature! Posting few of them! Check them out! M sure u will like them and they will take you to Cloud 9!
M loving it!
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Memories really play a funny role...I really wonder what we would be without all these memories??? Happy, Sad, Disgusting, Proud, Annoying, Calm, Blessed and may be how many types of memories we live in our whole life? Replay them in our inner mind like an old Movie DVD...Cherish some...try to forget some...but they are always there...no matter what!
There was a great painting job at house. Painting the house is the most threatening job especially when you have a house full of furniture and things of all sorts. Displacing them, Covering them to save from unwanted paint stains and then again uncovering them, replacing them...Its a mountain of Jobs!
But, this time the this painting thing really made me go back in the past decades....That was the only reason which took me almost five hours to clear my clutter! It was a wonderful trip down the memory lane! First found my dear diaries which i used to write everyday without fail. That habit of writing a page everyday at that time has helped me cherish all my school n college days...Today...agreed everything's gone digital.Even i write down my thoughts virtually but still the romance of a handwritten diary...only few will understand!
Second were my Greeting cards...Ya i know today's kids might not believe that greeting cards were send or given with such devotional attitude! And the best part was that all my musical greeting cards were still functional! May be "Made in China" tag was not that prevalent in those days....
Third were my old Letters...Ya that was a era where e-mails,instant messages,conferencing were not such a frenzy. even i don't remember the telephone ringing without any so called important message! and mobile phones was a fantasy then! Rereading them made me feel so fresh!
And then the turn came of the poems....some written by me, some by others....Then the Slam Books filed by my bosom pals(Of which half are lost and half are still connected through networking sites) but the warmth they shared through those lines scribbled on my slam book can never be replaced by the Posts,Scraps,Tweets or pokes!
Then the Scrap Files, Some school projects done by me, Paper cuttings of favorite heroes(Who were our common crushes), Tennis Stars(The oldies....Stephie Graph, Martina Hingis, Andre Agassie, Pete Samprus), Some important inspiring columns...which were my favorite columns in my adolescent years...A few Mills & Boons copies which i used to read secretly!
Oh! so many things...all dumped in my closet. Every thing having some story behind it.
I had actually intended to clear all the clutter...But then discovered it was not at all clutter...It was me...myself living through all those past years...which i can never afford to loose...never!
And....So with a fresh and light heart but with a lump in my throat packed all my stuff again just to find my closet full again with the "BEST DAYS OF MY LIFE"......
There was a great painting job at house. Painting the house is the most threatening job especially when you have a house full of furniture and things of all sorts. Displacing them, Covering them to save from unwanted paint stains and then again uncovering them, replacing them...Its a mountain of Jobs!
But, this time the this painting thing really made me go back in the past decades....That was the only reason which took me almost five hours to clear my clutter! It was a wonderful trip down the memory lane! First found my dear diaries which i used to write everyday without fail. That habit of writing a page everyday at that time has helped me cherish all my school n college days...Today...agreed everything's gone digital.Even i write down my thoughts virtually but still the romance of a handwritten diary...only few will understand!
Second were my Greeting cards...Ya i know today's kids might not believe that greeting cards were send or given with such devotional attitude! And the best part was that all my musical greeting cards were still functional! May be "Made in China" tag was not that prevalent in those days....
Third were my old Letters...Ya that was a era where e-mails,instant messages,conferencing were not such a frenzy. even i don't remember the telephone ringing without any so called important message! and mobile phones was a fantasy then! Rereading them made me feel so fresh!
And then the turn came of the poems....some written by me, some by others....Then the Slam Books filed by my bosom pals(Of which half are lost and half are still connected through networking sites) but the warmth they shared through those lines scribbled on my slam book can never be replaced by the Posts,Scraps,Tweets or pokes!
Then the Scrap Files, Some school projects done by me, Paper cuttings of favorite heroes(Who were our common crushes), Tennis Stars(The oldies....Stephie Graph, Martina Hingis, Andre Agassie, Pete Samprus), Some important inspiring columns...which were my favorite columns in my adolescent years...A few Mills & Boons copies which i used to read secretly!
Oh! so many things...all dumped in my closet. Every thing having some story behind it.
I had actually intended to clear all the clutter...But then discovered it was not at all clutter...It was me...myself living through all those past years...which i can never afford to loose...never!
And....So with a fresh and light heart but with a lump in my throat packed all my stuff again just to find my closet full again with the "BEST DAYS OF MY LIFE"......
Monday, April 26, 2010
Mom was watching some serial again as usual...but the title song really took my heart...away..
"Kuthe Tuzha Janm Zhala,
Kuthe Tuzhe Muul,
Pidhya Pidhya Wahnarya Nadiche Tu Jal,
Pasarla Wat Wrukh
Nibhidla Tyancha
Ek Paan ghevu Pahe Shodh Asthithwacha..."
(Where were u born,Where are ur roots, u r the River water flowing through all your ancestral origins...Just like a Banyan tree stretching through wide skies...still ur just a leaf wishing to look for ur existence!")
I know i cannot do justice to the original Marathi lines, however good my translation skills are...!
Any ways... the real point is that is seeking one's existence so important? Seeking for one's roots? Seeking for our Origins?
Ya..no wonder there's so much research still going to seek the origin of this whole Universe...
Establishing the "Big Bang Theories" and all those theories which common man would seldom understand and bother to understand!
Well...i just know one thing whatever my roots were...Whether my Ancestors were Neanderthal,Cro-Magnyon, or some other Homo Sapiens Origin... What we are today matters the most!
Everybody may not be knowing their real roots or so...But we atleast people should feel for their parents who brought them up in this world. I see so many youngsters...Just neglecting their parents at such phase of their life where they need us the most...
But there too exist some youngsters who really care for their parents, not only parents but all other elders... N thts wat i call being true to ur roots! So, next time whenever you see some elderly person in need of help...just offer him ur hand...if not help just show that they are cared, respected and adored...! and that the world needs such wise yellow leaves....of the same stretched Banyan tree...remember...!
"Kuthe Tuzha Janm Zhala,
Kuthe Tuzhe Muul,
Pidhya Pidhya Wahnarya Nadiche Tu Jal,
Pasarla Wat Wrukh
Nibhidla Tyancha
Ek Paan ghevu Pahe Shodh Asthithwacha..."
(Where were u born,Where are ur roots, u r the River water flowing through all your ancestral origins...Just like a Banyan tree stretching through wide skies...still ur just a leaf wishing to look for ur existence!")
I know i cannot do justice to the original Marathi lines, however good my translation skills are...!
Any ways... the real point is that is seeking one's existence so important? Seeking for one's roots? Seeking for our Origins?
Ya..no wonder there's so much research still going to seek the origin of this whole Universe...
Establishing the "Big Bang Theories" and all those theories which common man would seldom understand and bother to understand!
Well...i just know one thing whatever my roots were...Whether my Ancestors were Neanderthal,Cro-Magnyon, or some other Homo Sapiens Origin... What we are today matters the most!
Everybody may not be knowing their real roots or so...But we atleast people should feel for their parents who brought them up in this world. I see so many youngsters...Just neglecting their parents at such phase of their life where they need us the most...
But there too exist some youngsters who really care for their parents, not only parents but all other elders... N thts wat i call being true to ur roots! So, next time whenever you see some elderly person in need of help...just offer him ur hand...if not help just show that they are cared, respected and adored...! and that the world needs such wise yellow leaves....of the same stretched Banyan tree...remember...!
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Mother Earth Day!
Hey....
First of all a very happy Earth Day!
I have made a resolution...ya resolutions can be made anytime of the year, not only 31st December when you are on an ultimate high. You want it, you resolve for it...
i will from today onwards always look in for the nature's miraculous wealth and do my bit to preserve it. It may be something very minuscule but still i know it will matter a lot!
It may be standing and staring at the trees, listening to the rustling leaves, hearing the sparrows chirp, watching the swallows built a nest, giving a pat to the mooing cow, cuddling my neighbor's dog, feeding the fish and much more small gestures.
These may seem small things but i know they will matter a lot...
So, come lets make a resolution to make our planet earth more green, more clean and more habitable...
And mind it it will include keeping a check of your carbon footprint...every time you throw the chips wrapper on the road, litter the woods or mountain tops where you go hiking, when you drive along your sedan where you could just walk a few steps and a list long indulgences in the man made luxuries...!
Lets take a conscious step towards not only going green but acting green in every aspect. by not disposing your car batteries in trash, by not using non-recyclable products, by saving paper.
Not only "save the tiger" will work but it should be "save our Mother earth"
and on an ending note i will just repeat the lines from that famous Discovery Channel Snippet..
"t kinda makes me want to break into song.
I love the oceans.
I love when rocks are steep.
I love explosions.
I love the caves so deep.
I love the whole world,
and all its mysteries.
I love tornadoes
I love Egyptian Caves
i love when great whites fly
i love the whole world
and all its sights and sounds
its such a brilliant place...
thus, the world is awesome......come lets preserve it......
First of all a very happy Earth Day!
I have made a resolution...ya resolutions can be made anytime of the year, not only 31st December when you are on an ultimate high. You want it, you resolve for it...
i will from today onwards always look in for the nature's miraculous wealth and do my bit to preserve it. It may be something very minuscule but still i know it will matter a lot!
It may be standing and staring at the trees, listening to the rustling leaves, hearing the sparrows chirp, watching the swallows built a nest, giving a pat to the mooing cow, cuddling my neighbor's dog, feeding the fish and much more small gestures.
These may seem small things but i know they will matter a lot...
So, come lets make a resolution to make our planet earth more green, more clean and more habitable...
And mind it it will include keeping a check of your carbon footprint...every time you throw the chips wrapper on the road, litter the woods or mountain tops where you go hiking, when you drive along your sedan where you could just walk a few steps and a list long indulgences in the man made luxuries...!
Lets take a conscious step towards not only going green but acting green in every aspect. by not disposing your car batteries in trash, by not using non-recyclable products, by saving paper.
Not only "save the tiger" will work but it should be "save our Mother earth"
and on an ending note i will just repeat the lines from that famous Discovery Channel Snippet..
"t kinda makes me want to break into song.
I love the oceans.
I love when rocks are steep.
I love explosions.
I love the caves so deep.
I love the whole world,
and all its mysteries.
I love tornadoes
I love Egyptian Caves
i love when great whites fly
i love the whole world
and all its sights and sounds
its such a brilliant place...
thus, the world is awesome......come lets preserve it......
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